Day 18

Today’s Takeaway: Today was a zero motivation day.

Today was a zero motivation kind of day. I woke up with all the intent in the world to make it a great start to the week. Got my kids to school on time, ate a healthy breakfast and even worked out. Then I sat down in my bed for what was supposed to be a couple episodes of the new season of Outer Banks…And that’s where I spent the next 6 hours. I didn’t even eat lunch.

And you know what? It was f*%king fabulous!

I can’t tell you the last time I did that! Sure, after every episode ended I guilted myself.

The devil on my shoulder going, “Press play…you know you want to.”

The angel retorting,”Liz! There has got to be SOMETHING productive for you to do!”

Then I remembered one of my previous posts. Always feeling the need to be a human doing instead of a human being. I made myself a promise in that post, that on this sabbatical I would make a concentrated effort to sometimes do the things “I want” to be doing instead of doing the “I coulds” and “I shoulds.”

I realized those angel and devil voices were actually reversed. The good voice was telling me to push play. I had no where to be, no one to report to, no work that HAD to get done. This was exactly what this sabbatical was meant for. The best thing for my mental health today was nothing. So, I pressed play…6 more times. 😂

Now there’s probably quite a few people reading this who are like, “Hell, you couldn’t have just lied to us?! Who wants to hear about you watching 6hrs of tv while I’m killing myself at work?! I kinda hate you right now.”

I get it. I know how lucky I am and I’m not trying to rub that fortune in anyone’s face. But there was another promise I made to myself, as well as the people choosing to follow this journey…these posts were going to be real. No matter how boring, controversial, insightful or personal, I was going to be honest with each takeaway. Today that takeaway is simple. I’m human and sometimes I have zero motivation days. Majority of the time I fight it and listen to the devil trying to keep me busy. Today I didn’t. That might seem like a pretty pointless takeaway…it’s big for me. So I’m sharing it. If you can relate with that kind of win, I urge you to try it too. It will do more for your mental health than washing that sink full of dishes. Trust!

Sorry, not sorry that today was a shitty post. I could’ve inspired a few people…probably not. And that’s okay. I’ll go back to being insightful tomorrow. This is what I needed today. No apologies. 😇❤️