Day 11

Today’s Takeaway: Big news and big decisions. ❤️

No breast cancer for this chick!

My breast MRI report came back today and it said the lump was, and I quote: “Almost entirely fat with minimal parenchymal enhancement.” I have no idea what “parenchymal enhancement” is but you can call my breasts “entirely fat” as long as you don’t call them cancerous! Relieved is an understatement. 😅🥹

As for the ovarian side of this story…the lesion on my ovary is still present but has not grown considerably. The growth they saw on my ultrasound in December did in fact turn out to be an ovulatory cyst.

Which is GREAT, don’t get me wrong. It’s just I know how this next part goes. We will go back to a 6-month monitoring schedule, and if that lesion grows even slightly more than it should, or I get another ovulatory cyst (which happens quite frequently) that will trigger the need for additional testing and off to the races we go!

I’ve been riding this rollercoaster for over a decade. The truth is I don’t know if I have another scare in me. Every time this has happened, and it’s happened a lot over the last 10 years, the world stops for me. Sure I’m positive and upbeat on the surface. Putting on a happy face for everyone around me. But I’m frozen; mentally, physically, emotionally…every way you can be. And every time it’s just takes away a little more of my glow, a little more of my sanity. It’s slowly wearing me down and I can’t let that happen.

This sabbatical was never just about the cancer. It was about a reset and recharge, mind, body and soul. And dammit, when I set my mind to something I get shit done!

So I’ve made a decision to get off the rollercoaster. Next week I will be meeting with my doctors to discuss the removal of my ovary. I know this is a controversial decision. A loaded decision. But ultimately it’s the right decision for me. I’m ready to finally close this chapter of my story.

Today I’m not just celebrating great reports, I’m celebrating the decision to take ownership of my body and finally say

“So long Cancer. F&$k you very much!” 🤘🏻